Immaturity: Yeah we all are. But some more so than others. Some on different levels due to their current situation. But lets talk about this. I’ll use this example. My boyfriend took me to see Eclipse because I am a fan of Twilight and he was being very nice to me. After wards he posted this as his status; ” Ian saw Eclipse with Amber yesterday. What’s sad is that movie has more of an intellectually stimulating story and characters than all the other movies that I have seen lately. What happened?”

A very harmless, non provoking status, yes? Well unfortunately, due to the very popular ‘hate-twilight-and-you’ll-be-different-from-everyone-else-and-a-lot-cooler-and-smarter-and-better-than-them-too’ phase that people seem to think is so freakin cool, this escalated into this;

Patrick commented, “What happened? Sounds like your standards were lowered. haha.”

Ian commented, “No, it’s that Hollywood is more intrigued by the all mighty dollar than a no good story. Look at what’s been in theatres lately either remakes, 3D movies, or movies based off a cartoon idea…accept it or not my standards haven’t been lowered. Maybe yours have.”

Jennifer commented, “I’d rather slit my wrists than go see that movie. =)” And this is a 19 or 20-year-old that is having a love child. Real nice right?

Ian commented, “Well that was morbid.”

John commented, “Yeah, but it’s kind of true. Actually I’d rather saw my head off with an old steak knife. Go Team RETCH.” Not sure how old this one is, but his Facebook says 1967.

Patrick commented, “Although, I do find it funny Ian that you accuse me of lowering my standards. I haven’t been to the theater in months because of the mass amount of failures. Just not worth the money anymore. But you’re right, I don’t like the shitty teenage love triangle (not original at all) movie, and therefore I have reduced standards. lol A man admitting to liking the Twilight series is proof of the power of poon. :D” This guy right here is 25 and married. Hopefully with that kind of attitude he will not be procreating any time soon.

Now I’m not just pointing this towards the Twilight war, that was just an example. I’m speaking in general. If these are the type of people supposed to be older, wiser, and more mature than me, I am definitely scared. Yes, I’m 17, but I’m not going to go around acting like that, especially if I was in any of their situations.

It’s far past the time to grow up, people.


I’m so glad you finally found me. I’m glad it took this long, because back when we met we were right for each other. It’s funny how fate molded us for each other. It can’t be anything other than that, of course, fate. There are far too many things that could never have happened. It was never left to chance for us.

We’ve been together for such a small time yet you’ve already got me wrapped up in your smile. I couldn’t untangle myself even if I wanted to. These butterflies…they make me sick, and scared. Only been this scared once in my life, because I know that if anything happened to us it would be so much worse than the last one. I’ve got far more to lose in you.

You never cease to amaze me, what a lovely cliché. Your silly little romantic side makes me laugh and my heart smile. My heart never seems more healthy than when I’m with you. I need you here to strengthen it.

I never stop thinking about you, you’re always in a little corner of my mind. As if I didn’t have enough distractions already. I can’t wait for forever, because I want forever with you. I love you, Ian.

Love always,


I’m talking about fate here – when feelings are so powerful it’s as if some force beyond your control is guiding you to someone who can make you happy beyond your wildest dreams.

So I did it. Go me!!

In the process

Ow! That hurts!

The finished product!

The finished product!


July 7, 2010

I know I haven’t blogged in a while so here is what is happening! ;

First off, today like in just a couple hours (shudder) I’m getting my tattoo. I’m INCREDIBLY scared. I remeber when I got my belly button pierced I almost passed out, yeah its happening again. HOMFGWOAH! Somebody help!

I’ve been really busy dating Ian lol. It’s a full time job. But its going amazing.

I’ve been doing nothing really.

Except for last week, I spent time with family and got a little tipsy. It was fun :D

Yes, alcohol. I found some I liked. Don’t worry though. I’m not as much of a horrible child as I seem.

OH GOODNESS! I’m effing nervous!


June 28, 2010

It’s just so awesome when the people that are always supposed to be there for you, let you down.

Like when they promise something and then they make sure it never happens on purpose. It’s great when you lose respect for the people you respect the most. Especially when it was really important to you and looked forward to it so much.

But in the end they were always planning on you to fail, to be disappointed, to end up defeated.

These are the people that are supposed to love you.