June 28, 2010

It’s just so awesome when the people that are always supposed to be there for you, let you down.

Like when they promise something and then they make sure it never happens on purpose. It’s great when you lose respect for the people you respect the most. Especially when it was really important to you and looked forward to it so much.

But in the end they were always planning on you to fail, to be disappointed, to end up defeated.

These are the people that are supposed to love you.


Screw You

June 26, 2010

What the hell is your problem?!

You are the one who left me, remember? I was too “immature.” Well whose the fucking immature one now?

My  life is none of your fucking business so quit trying to be all up in it, asshole!

Quit ruining my life. Don’t you think you already did enough damage without spreading lies and shit about me and your fucking BEST FRIEND! Who the hell do you think you are? If you keep alienating people all you’re gonna have left is that nasty little bitch and that would be one miserable existence.

You’re lucky I didn’t actually give you this bitching. I was the bigger person told Ian to drop it. Don’t expect any more favors you don’t deserve.

So go screw yourself.

So many things have happened since I last blogged.

First; Yesterday was my trip to Holiday World. I didn’t get to do much on account of a fainting spell that left me miserable all day. I got there and went into the lazy river and went around once just to cool off as it was insanely hot. So we started walking around and found the Wilderbeest. It had a very long line but we decided on going for it anyway. We went through for about an hour and a half and had about 20 minutes left. Then BAM all the sudden I started feeling horrible. I muttered to them that I had to get out of line and I started walking but had to stop to lean over a rail. Then everything went black. I thought I closed my eyes but I couldn’t figure out why they wouldn’t open at all. Apparently they were wide open and completely dilated. That’s when I started having convulsions.  Then I went into a dream kind of thing and thought I had started walking but the next thing I know I’m on the ground with life guards all around me. “Did I pass out?” was the first thing I said. But the first thought I had was, “I need a really hot, strong guy to carry me.” Even in times of danger I am always on the prowl for the hotties. lol

Next, today I broke up with Chase. It was horrible. But it isn’t fair to date him when I’m not sure how I even feel. So it was the right thing to do. But thats okay because I found an amazingly awesome replacement, Ian. He was Robert’s best friend when we dated and I always had a thing for him, and apparently it was mutual. So we’re started talking and he is so funny and so sweet. :)

Lastly I got my tattoo estimated! It will cost around 80 bucks and only take 45 minutes. So wish me luck!

The Tattoo!

June 20, 2010

The tattoo has been chosen! I’m gonna change the orange shadow to purple. How did this IMPOSSIBLE thing happen? How did I convince my dad??! I talked to him, told him it was small, where I was gonna put it, why it was going there, blah, blah blah. He said yes! Of course his reasoning is that I won’t get the money for it, but that is WRONG!! Because I’m getting some just next week. HOPEFULLY, if it isn’t enough for a bigger one it’ll be enough for a smaller one. Not too small. I’m sooo freakin excited!

The Best Things In Life

June 18, 2010

Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours to sleep.

First kisses. (That are actually good)

Spending time with friends.

Singing in the shower.

Making brownies and cookies.

Holding hands with someone you care about.

Falling asleep with someone you love.

Watching a sunset, or sunrise.

Sleeping in.

Taking long, hot showers.

Knowing that somebody misses you.

Creating something people admire.

Watching movies all day.

Sitting with your dad in his giant recliner watching History Channel.

Having fun with your mom.

A good book you can’t put down.


Singing about God and getting that feeling.

Looking at amazing art.

Being genuinely happy.